It seems like maintenance is easier when things are going well, but this month (February 2023) has been very trying for me personally and I have noticed some of my old habit creep back up. The fact that I am aware of them and this pattern makes me hopeful that I will take control and change things for the better.
I am under a lot of stress since my husband was hospitalized. His blood pressure was so high that he was on a verge of having a stroke. We luckily came to the hospital just in time. Thankfully, he is doing better but this gave us all a huge fright. He has drastically improved his eating, and I feel like that should have been motivating to continue with my own good eating habits, but for some reason I have been overeating on all the wrong things! Food has always been my escape and when I am under stress or scared, I eat and feel better. Except now, I am eating and thinking that I am feeling better but in reality I am not and I am feeling guilty and actually sad that I am allowing myself to get back to the overeating phase.
I think I needed to write this to hold myself accountable (as always) and remind myself that I have the tools and skills, and I just need to get back to my healthy eating pattern. I lost a total of 182lbs and I have regained this year (January and February) about 25lbs. That number actually scares me, because it's not just a few pounds.
I need to be able to take the stressors of life, like my husband's health conditions and work-related stress, and deal with them in such a way that I am not overeating and eating things that are not healthy for me. I am just going to leave this right here, and hopefully come back in a month or so - and update you and let you know that I was able to control my food intake and that I got back to my good habits and that I am back on track.
